It’s interesting, because he had a natural sense of responsibility, a need to take care of things and keep order. This aggravated the resentment he already felt towards his parents and brother Abel because of how he felt so dismissed and overburdened by their constant reliance and simultaneous complete disregard of him. He also has abandonment issues due to his perceived rejection by God. I say this because of the experience he had when he jumped off of the cliff and was pinned under the water for an unknown amount of time and kept drowning over and over and how that stripped away so much of his humanity. That would be what I thought of as the prevailing issue. The best diagnosis for him is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Is he a sociopath? What would be his diagnosis? I didn’t go to school for that kind of thing so when a fan who is in the midst of that very thing did a psychoanalysis of Cain from my series, The Cain Chronicles, I seriously thought it was the coolest thing ever. I always wondered what Cain would be diagnosed with. It’s amazing that it came out of such a sweet little Mormon girl. Like the way he murders a very famous queen in the second book. So to have someone like Cain and his darkness come out of my mind in a totally subconscious way, it kind of makes me wonder what I have deep down in my depths. I prefer to be the positive, nice person who tries not to engage with bullies, even when they’re attacking me in front of everyone. They kind of just came out of my fingers, shocking even me with their cruelty. He does things that I honestly had never even thought of before I wrote them. He’s angry, selfish, crazy, and lashes out in really mean ways.
I do that with every character, but there’s one in particular that I’ve been really surprised I can write. I feel more like my stories and characters come from outside of myself and I just put it down onto paper. I cry when they do, I get angry when they’re angry, and giddy when they’re happy. I don’t know how much most authors get into their characters, but I become them as I write.
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